Introduction

Not even real sure how to start these things. I'll just start from the top.

You can call me Patch. I'm twenty-three years old, living in Memphis, TN, I'm a bisexual ftm transman who is currently a little over one-and-a-half months on testosterone.

I suffer from periodic moments of depression and anxiety. I was dangerously suicidal when I was a teenager but things have slightly improved since then.

I've been with my girlfriend for a little over two years now and we are currently very happy with each other.

Right now my life consists of me trying to advance through life while fighting the constant fear of failure. Failure towards my parents, my relationship, my job, and myself. All while this is happening, I'm putting on a smile and telling everyone that everything is fine. Only girlfriend, therapist, and now anyone and everyone who will read my posts, know how jumbled my head really is. Hopefully writing things down here will help.